I am taking a break from Facebook for several reasons.
First, it's time-consuming.
It becomes an obsession, always with a phone in hand and
not a moment when the mind is at rest-
an empty-brain zone.
Second, because of all of the above, we are looking for
others to comment, like or share.
"Others have comments, why don't I."
Secretly I am screaming, "Validate me! Make me feel loved, accepted
and approved." When my sense of worth and approval should always come
from my Maker.
This has been a hard few months for us, a test.
David has always been the strong one,
never sick.
We've sought peace, pursued it and experienced it.
However, if the enemy can't get in one way, he'll try another.
He's tried, through Facebook, to convince me that our friends at home,
because they didn't comment, didn't care.
That we were gone and forgotten.
He is a LIAR!
Last, there's always the tendency to compare.
"Her family's perfect."
"They always get vacations! The only trip I get is to the grocery store."
Thus, the break and maybe more blogging,
more time in the Word,
and more peace.
When I am blogging, I tend to look for the beauty in things-
my collections, the things and people that I love, nature and
the things that matter most.
Take for instance, this morning I had to mail a package.
While doing so, I passed a couple of yard sales.
I stopped. I backed up and spent a few minutes talking
to strangers, a simple pleasure that I haven't done in awhile.
As turning down the road to go home, I spotted a fence
that I pass everyday.
I noticed. I stopped. I turned around.
I enjoyed the beauty of the rusty and crusty,
and I took the time to consider the fence.
Fences
(I blogged a few years ago.)
how fences, keep others out.
how some fences can puncture and wound.
how fences, can stop us from going further.
Sometimes, we fence ourselves in by
keeping others out.
We are wounded so we keep others out.
We wound because others have kept us out.
I passed a fence that was open.
I started to turn in.
The "No Trespassing" sign was an indication to
"Keep Out!"
I obeyed.
Therefore, no photo.
Sometimes, we open our fences just a bit,
but our sign continues to read,
"No Trespassing."
Sometimes fences are hidden as was one that I passed.
Had I tried to walk through the path that I thought
was a passage, I would have been stopped from going in.
Fences...I'll be thinking on this when I'm sitting quietly...
without a cell phone in hand.
By the way, we found out
that David has a full bladder of stones.
He has a couple of large ones and the rest are like grains of sand.
His prostate is another problem, but no cancer.
A couple of surgeries or one.
He is waiting to find out.
We're good and thankful and praising God
that's it's not a tumor which we honestly considered.
Thanks for your prayers,
Bonnie
