Junk Yard Therapy

I'm struggling with the comparison game again. 

You know the game we play where 

everyone else is more talented, smarter, more creative,

more beautiful, skinnier, more fit,

has more, does more, anything-more???

I think we ladies all have that tendency.

However, I have met super-confident ladies. 

I guess they really are that self-assured, 

or maybe they are hiding behind a fascade, 

or maybe they have already been on the journey

I'm on and have overcome. 

I want to be an overcomer. 

I really do.

I judge myself most by lack of knowlege and education,

even more so than I do weight and fitness. 

When I was a junior in high school, I was told by a teacher, 

"You have a 3rd grade IQ."

Talk about damaging. 

I tell people this and they say, 

"You know better than that!"

Do I really?

I was tested.

A mean a test is everything, right?

At least that's how they judge our children, right?

Now that I am older, I struggle with issues of memory.

Since Mama had Alzhemiers, every time I can't remember something,

lose my keys, can't remember what I've told my children

and what I haven't, repeated myself like she did,

my mind immediately goes there.

I've discovered a book, 

Without Rival,

that I hope will help me work through some of these issues. 

I pray. 

I really do. 

I'm being vunerable here. 

It's that other me that nobody sees. 

But on a better note, 

I went out this weekend to a "Barn Sale."

I was so disappointed. 

I was expected a "barn" and all I got was a "booth."

It's okay, because I enjoyed the trip.

Even though I did lose my purse, bug spray and phone. 

I had dropped them out of Harper's stroller

and somebody found them.

I guess that wasn't a memory issue, 

but I still felt stupid. 

Here are some photos that I took-

not good photos, but fun!

The chair is my favorite in this-

Vignette?

Aw! Cute!

Another rusty-crusty chair and cinderella pumpkin. 

Is $14 for a pumpkin a good deal?

I didn't know, so I didn't get. 

I'll probably get sorry.

Corn stalks and vegetable baskets remind me of Fall. 

It was a nice 60 degrees that morning. 

This was my favorite of all, 

a farm table, a galvanized bucket 

and most of all, the place settings. 

I absolutely love this!

I wish I had that brown transferware!

Oh, I loved this too!

But, no can do to $35!

So, when I'm playing the comparison game, 

I do junk yard therapy.

Thanks for listening.

I am not fishing for compliments 

as one of my "friends" would tell me.

We all need a listening ear without judgement, 

don't you agree?