First thing is, I made the decision to no longer to keep my baby girl on a daily basis. Doing so, I was overcome with anxiety, fear, and guilt. A decision that hurts my family feels selfish. I was anxious because I had to tell my daughter. I am afraid because I know that my daughter faces challenges everyday that most young mothers take for granted, and all of the above added more guilt.
At this point in my life, it is important for me to take care of myself too. I saw my doctor last week. She feels that most of my health problems are stress-related. I'll be honest, the change from a small rural town to big city living has not been what I expected. I am away from home almost 12 hours some days and 10 hours everyday. I almost go to sleep coming and going and I frequently have panic attacks because of the traffic.
I was rear-ended on Wednesday and I thought I was having a heart-attack. It Really just knocked the breath out of me and I am so grateful.
Please pray for provision-the best childcare for my baby and decisions that may need to be made for my daughter's well-being and another source of income for Mr. H and me.
Thank God my niece was not with me that morning. She was a big help through out the week.
Connor and Cora enjoyed the flavored ice more than they did the splash pad. Baby Harp enjoyed sidewalk chalk and Connor and Sarah took to a movie, The Secret Life of Pets.
I am anxious to read about what is going on in your lives but I have my mother in law for the next two weeks and friends from home the next weekend. I will be away for awhile once again. Will catch up with you soon.