The IVF Journey Begins

Today, I need to share my heart.

You, my blog friends, have

become my prayer partners, 

for which I am so thankful.  

Most of you know,

how long we have been praying for a baby,

6 years. 

I'm so ready to see this smile again-

ready to see my baby girl laugh like she once did,

ready to see that twinkle in her eye again.

Ready to see her celebrate again,

Ready for her heart to sing again,

Ready to see the craziness,

Ready to see this incredible love
shared with a child.

(This was taken when our Connor man, her brother's baby,
was born.)

Ready to have her experience 

the love and joy that is beyond 

any love she has ever known.

Praying that the arms that have held others, 

will one day very soon, 

hold their own.

If being a good husband is any indication 

of what kind of daddy he will be, 

this man will be the best!

Cancer could not claim him

and neither will infertility defeat him!

After 7 IUIs and a miscarriage, 

they will finally start 

the IVF process this week-

one step at a time.

On Wednesday, she will start birth control, 

as crazy as that sounds, 

to start a new cycle.

She and Troy will both

start on antibiotics. 

(Don't ask me why!)

She will have her own personal

fertility nurse who will be 

with her through the entire process.

She's afraid of so many things,

afraid it won't take,

afraid it will take and

afraid of loss,

afraid of what people will say, 

afraid of what people won't say, 

afraid of looks of pity, 

afraid of looks of excitement-
just afraid.

Today her emotions are all over the place, 

Troy is off on business, 

and I'm six hours away.

I say, 

"I will come."

She says, 

"I'll be okay."

So Jesus, 

will you give her peace while she waits. 

I know I've shared all of these photos before

but I just want these two faces fresh

in your minds as you bring them before the Lord.

Thank You for your Prayers, 

Bonnie:)